...I believe My Self ...

Life is full of surprises,. what we have prepared is not necessarily going
 to make everything goes smoothly..
 like today, .. I think the most important thing for me now is how I can control myself and not panic. because I remember, when my teacher once said that
" the panic could eliminate the memory / concentration of a person up to 99%"
So... what I really need isn't about excessive or science skills
 but the key to be able everything to run smoothly is PEACE ..
In this day I have been challenged by many things,
 first I learned how I must race against with the time, for me it's important to be able to run everything that has been scheduled for today.
second, I learned how to be a consistent approach to target,target  and  life purpose.
  The third I learned when life doesn't  give me a choice, I had to learn to be independent, to earn money for my own self, for health and life, Well it's okay ..that's life, I did not make it load but the challenge to reach the targets and ideals. Allah Swt give me more severe maybe it will make me to be a sharper knife.. not weak but strong.
Although I can't do the best for today, hopefully it doesn't make me worse and despair..
But this becomes a Big motivation for me to learn to more recognize myselves and understand the circumstances. l
Cause I know learning need a process, that takes not only just1 times. 
hmm.. I just Hope's may Allah Swt give me a chance and lend it confidence
 to make me learn to be better with all the passion that I have today.